1 Liebe Pisse

This  blog is more my story of my life,
how I became a submissive piss drinking sissy maid.

My real name is Herman and I grew up in West Berlin.

And my childhood, in retrospect, was the beginning of who I am today

I didn't really know my father very well, he passed away at a young age. So I grew up with only my mother. A mother who was always there for me but also a free spirit.

I often played alone at home and like many children do, you look in your parents' closet. And there were her things, dresses and shoes, but also lingerie. And from a very young age I walked through the house in her shoes. She allowed me to, but later in the years I put on her dress when she wasn't there. And in the back of the garden there was a roll pastic for over the laundry when it rained. And why I don't know but I liked to roll myself into it, it turned me on sexually.

I discovered masturbation and whenever possible I wore a dress and jerked off.

And then I was caught, I had just come, and there was my mother.

I remember I started to cry really hard.

And once I had calmed down she wanted to know how long I had been doing this. Like any parent, she already knew that I was looking in her closets

I remember well that I'm say anything I was very ashamed.

But she was very sweet and it wasn't until weeks later that she came back to it.

With a booklet about sexual orientation. I was then 14 years old.

 

2 Sperma Schlampe

 

Now I skip years in which a lot has happened but where my Sissy feeling was suppressed.

In the early 90s after a divorce I was alone and had time to discover myself.

It was a time when I started wearing lingerie from now and then to regularly, also under normal clothes.

Via the internet I came into contact with a Belgian couple where the man wore a Goethals chastity belt. He was also regularly locked in a special box. Very nice people with both a good job as a top civil servant. I have met them several times. Where he sat in the coffin and I sat on the couch with his wife. We have not had a sexual relationship, but they have encouraged me to discover myself and not to suppress my deep feeling. It felt like a liberation and from that moment on I started looking for a new partner who wasn't narrow-minded and stood up for my feelings.

And so I started to dress more and more like a woman at home. And of course not in ordinary clothes but especially in sexy outfits. And also wearing a chastity belt. Completely made of steel with a belt around the waist and the possibility to wear a butplug (Thanks to my Belgian friends). I even went so far as to go for a drive in a sexy outfit en belt in the car. I did this on my own and with the thoughts that I had to do this... That is also where I started licking my own sperm.

3 Ich bin eine Hure

 

The search for a partner who is open to my craziness has not succeeded. But ultimately love at first sight. And now married for years and still in love. And in the beginning we talked about our preferences and sex life in the past. Now my wife is a kind of well-known figure sometimes on TV and often at trade fairs and at seminars she is a welcome speaker. So we are careful about expressing and publicizing our special relationship.

But back to the beginning. I write this easily but to share your deepest feelings, something that is not seen as normal by many people, was not easy. So I didn't just say it outright. It actually just happened, I had been sitting on my computer looking at high heels and suspenders. Suddenly my love was behind me. I felt caught I was 14 again the day when I was caught by my mother. Her first thought was that this is how I wanted to see her in bed (which I am). She wanted to know everything and I told her everything. Really everything, that I feel very submissive in lingerie. And also that I still had clothes and sex stuff in my own house, and that I had photos and videos of myself (filming myself makes me extra horny). 

She wanted to see the videos and my pictures immediately…

After she had seen the photos and video which were definitely explecite. Also the texts I said were explicit. "I'm a whore, I want piss and cum ect..." I felt caught again...

She saw me in a very private moment something that was all to myself. But no remark no disapproval more surprise  of feminine submissive side.

She wanted to go straight to my house to see my sex stuff...

In the car the conversation started, and she had a lot of questions, but the most important one was are you hiding anything else from me?

Was I not looking for men or had I been in relationships with men?

I've never dated a man. I am also not attracted to a man.

4 Bei mir zu Hause

 

At my house. I had to show her everything I had. And that was quite a lot. Various skirts, dresses, stockings, high heels, pants, dildos, clamps and cuffs. A decent collection.

She wanted to know more, how long had I been doing this. I have told about my meeting with the Belgian couple, and that I went out wearing lingerie, that I was driving around in the car with only lingerie high heels and penis belt. It was strange to be able to speak so openly. I don't remember exactly what I said but I really think everything. Also from the old days when my mother caught me, and the thing that I wrapped myself in plastic (I will come back to that later)...

I didn't want to deny my other side again and start a relationship where I can't be myself. 

After seeing everything and listening to me, we were both a bit emotional and needed some rest to let everything sink in. The best way is to walk and have a drink somewhere. She wasn't shocked, but she wasn't sure if I was being honest either. Something that is difficult to prove because there was nothing more than my word. And that it's up to her to believe me. I understood her too. And asked her, don't you also have fantasies and secrets that you think about that I don't know?

 I had no solution for this stalemate.

After these revelations, there was a bit more distance between us. She needed time to put everything in place

Outside of the Belgium couple, I had never spoken to anyone about this. It was a while ago but needed feedback and advice so I contacted my Belgium friends. She was clear about that, let her call me and I can tell her that if she is open to it, a deep relationship can develop between you. “I am very grateful to our Belgium friends” I don't know what was discussed, but on Sunday evening she was at my door with a compelling request. 

She had spoken with the Belgium's girlfriend, and I think a lot had become clear to her there. "Later she said that this had been very enlightening for her and also that if she did it right she could have a partner who would do anything for her."

5 Sissy-Muschi

 Her request was, 

I want you to do your thing when you're alone, how you dress and anything else you do. I don't want to get involved with what you're doing, don't speak to me or make eye contact. I'm looking but I'm not there, so go ahead because you're home alone. My thought was well it's now or never now can show why I want to be a Piss Maid. 

First cleaning my Piss Maid pussy. Something I found really hard in front of her. Fortunately it wasn't too big a mess, then shave everything and rub it with oil. Next my old steel chastity cage and butplug, stockings, high heels and my favorite dress, short made of imitation leather in black (easy te clean). I had no idea what she thought of me, and I was so afraid that she would leave, that she would think this is dirty and crazy. 

Without going much further into what I did, I do want to share 1 thing that my wife had her doubts about.

That's sucking a dildo. I've been doing that for quite some time and it makes me extra horny. I have a beautiful black dildo 19 cm long. Not too thick and flexible. And has balls too.

The dress I'm wearing is so tight that I can't work my nipples. When I'm horny I want to touch my nipples. The dress in combination with the chastity cage and the deep blowing of the dildo (I take it all the way deep and then lick the balls). I can keep this up for a long time (it does get a little sore throat afterwards) This makes me so horny I just want to cum but that's not possible.

I am then desperate and do not know how and what to do. I just lose my way and I want to be called a whore.

Eventually everything calms down it 

 was enough for one night and took out the but plug took it deep into my mouth to clean it.

I was wet with sweat and wanted to take a shower, but no, my wife said "take your coat we go to my house".

At her home, in itself an exciting ride behind the wheel. When you're standing at a traffic light and there's someone next to you who has no idea what I'm wearing ;-)

She was honest she was lost in the whole thing. She was thrilled to see me like this. But still had her doubts. What did I expect from her now? She wondered if I really wasn't gay. Because sucking a dildo and fucking myself in my sissy cunt is gay behavior. She knows that being gay is really something else than enjoying what appears to be gay sex.

So it came down to trust and that I really don't fall for men or looking for real cock. I want to be submissive not 24/7 but regularly. And that I really will do whatever she asks. And I mean everything.

And she wondered where she get her sexual need. In bed she wants a real man no dresses or nylons. I didn't have an answer to it either, other than the sex we had was nice and both enjoyed it. So that hasn't changed, except that I get my needs from somewhere else every now and then. I suppressed it for years but it keeps me huffing and craving. It makes me sullen and then I'm not a nice man. It just has to come out every now and then.

6 Ich ben ihre Piss-Schlampe

 

Now taking a big step forward, we have been married for years and have found our way together in my submissive feelings. 

We've given it a place where we both feel good.

So now to the present (I'll also come back to rolling in plastic) where are we now?

I'm her Piss Slut, I can show her that I drink her and my piss and cum and what a whore I am. Not 24/7,  but 24/7 I do everything for her, she has a lot of control over the things.

My sex stuff and clothes are under lock and key she has the key she decides. Her lingerie is a no go... And I'm not allowed to watch porn or anything like that either. If I'm allowed to satisfy myself I have to look at a pictures of myself. 

I'm the whore that men look at and love to jerk off

I'm not allowed to jerk off,  I have to use the vibrating wand. But that doesn't happen very often and only on my wife's orders. The exception is on cleaning day...

What started as once in a while in a dress cleaning the house, has become the house cleaning in a hard and strict routine of household chores that I have to do. Usually on a Monday, or and if something is needed in or around the house. Always wear daring clothes in the house, plus but plug and cock ring. The last year it is always the skirt or dress  depending on the season. When it gets colder a dress, black plastic leather closed high but very short, stockings with suspenders attached to the belt of my cock ring. See drawing ;-)

Now I am what I have become. That took time and, above all, talking. What I want I have never hidden and always talked about. That does not mean that it happened immediately and some things are still a desire.

During our bed adventures I started licking her clean after the act, and thus swallowing my own cum. I always do now, even after anal sex. At one point my wife has to pee and I suggested pee in my mouth. I drank her deliciously empty I felt so submissive especially when she looked at me. And so my longing for her piss slowly arose. Slowly but surely she took more and more charge of several matters. Ordinary things too. Right now no is not an option I do whatever she asks she is on top.

I do not buy anything without consultation and approval. She has access to and control over my money. Clothing is always in consultation, but she decides. It's very normal for us now and don't really think about it anymore. It feels good to me I don't worry about anything just do the things she wants me to do. If I want to do something of my own I have to ask. It works fine for us.

There are some things she really doesn't want.

That's sex with her in lingerie or something like that. May massage her but no sexual acts. Taking me with a strapon is a no. Wearing a chastity belt only when she's gone for a few days. With the key always within reach and under no circumstances am I allowed to take it outside. If I have to leave the house, he has to go. Blowing a dildo is only allowed on cleaning day (tell more about that later).

What is allowed and what she also encourages me to do is drink my piss on cleaning day. Walking around with a butt plus wearing a cock ring. I am allowed to wear lingerie under my clothes from time to time, but only when we are together outside or in the car.

There's a reason I won't say anything about that...

7 Unterwürfige Pissschlampe

 

Before I describe my cleaning day, I want to make it clear that we, my wife and I, are a very ordinary couple in love. I'm not a slave to my wife, I'm more of a gentleman who supports his wife in her daily life and work. And of course she supports me too. I have hobbies, I do strength sports (I'm pretty strong and muscular) and I can always do whatever I want, but I have to ask. 

If I don't follow the rules then punishment usually follows in the form of just doing my household chores in normal clothes no piss or sex nothing!

 There are also moments of reward when I have made an extra effort or have done something that I really dislike. This is not self-evident sometimes yes sometimes not. Depends on my wife's feeling. 

Family and friends have no idea about our extra relationship, although I think her best friend and work partner might know more. 

How does my cleaning day look like?

The closer the day approaches, the more I long for it. The Day before I am already in an excited and extra submissive state. Which often leads to an extensive foot and leg massage. I then sitting at the foot of the bed on my knees on the floor, my wife is usually lying in bed reading or watching TV. 

Sometimes I am allowed to wear a suspender, stockings and high heels, but that is not self-evident. These massages sometimes get a little out of hand because I feel very horny at her feet. 

I can then beg for A belt around my neck with a dog leash (chain) that she holds and can correct me.

 I then get so turned on that all I do is massage and lick her feet. I prefer to lick and suck her soles and toes. When I'm in this state then I'm just of this world. I'm floating somewhere and can't stop. I can't describe what this is but I'm just completely gone in love with her feet.....

If I've been very nice there's is an extra treat for me. She has high heels ankle boots with an extra thick sole. I can put it on her feet and than I lick the boots and suck the sole en heels......

Are there any readers who like this too? 

8 Trinken Sie Pisse Hure

 

Cleaning Day

The day starts early with dressing and preparation for wearing the but plug, and setting the alarm. I have to stand in front of the camera for 10 minutes every hour. There are cameras in and around the house, including in the living room. I have to stand in a special place facing the camera so that I'm in the picture. I have no idea if or who is watching and I can't ask. I did this once and the result the housework in normal clothes for 2 weeks ;-(.

At 6:30 I bring coffee to my wife's bed.

There is no speaking because I am nothing, not worth addressing.

Then I prepare breakfast and put her stuff and keys and such ready.

 I have to wait in the pantry for her to leave.

Cleaning day is also my fasting day I don't eat or drink anything. 

If I have to drink is my own piss. I can only do this in the 10 minutes in front of the camera. I have to put the rest of my piss in a jug or bowl.

Now I've noticed that if you drink piss you have to piss more often. does it seem to be recycled faster?

As soon as my wife is gone I start my duties. These are strict and I must follow them. I go through the house from top to bottom. And generally I'm working on that all day.

Now I don't wear a chastity cage and can therefore just play with my sissy clit, but cumming is strictly forbidden. 

At 13:00 I must watch a porn movie for 15 minutes It is always the same but I can now watch another one that is "GGG - Mund Auf Pisse Rein" by John Thompson. 

My fantasy is that I get to lick these ladies clean after shooting the movie. 

It seems delicious all that piss and cum HMMMM...

My wife always goes out for dinner on Mondays, when she is almost done eating she sends a message that she is coming home.

That is the sign to me that I have to be ready for her arrival.

 I try to drink as little piss as possible on this day so that there is as much piss in the bowl as possible.

I spread out a piece of plastic in the pantry, put the bowl on the floor and put my black dildo next to it. 

On my knees waiting for her to come home. I sit there waiting and my mind wanders (more on that later). First an inspection through the house to see if I did everything right. 

Then she comes to the pantry and checks if there is enough piss in the bowl.

So far it's basically always the same. 

What follows may vary from time to time, but I'll write how it went last time.

So she checks whether the bowl is full enough (sometimes she fills it up with her piss). Now it was about three quarters full but no refill. She touches the dildo with her foot as a sign that I can suck it. First it has to go in the bowl of piss. I have to keep repeating this in this case for about 10 minutes. So in the bowl blow, back into the bowl. She is not present so I try to do it as good as possible. I'm already dripping with piss. When she comes back the dildo has to go (she doesn't say anything there is no eye contact). Then I have to completely submerge my face in the bowl and the piss has to go into my mouth, nose, eyes and ears. I have to try to stay down as long as possible. When she walks away, it's a sign that it's been long enough. Then it's up to me what I'm going to do with the piss. In this case, I lay on my back and poured the bowl of piss into my mouth, trying to drink as much of it as possible. I poured the rest over me and washed myself with it. I am then so horny that I jerk off and come on the plastic.

After I've come, the urge and the desire are gone, but now it comes down to how submissive I am. I'm wet from the piss and the plastic is also wet. I take the corners so that whatever is on them forms a puddle. My wife sits in the room doing her thing. I try to lick all the piss off the plastic as best I can. Then I lie down on it and roll myself in the plastic. And stay in it for as long as possible. I wait for she gives the signal that I can get out. She usually asks how her piss whore is doing. I have to undress. The nylons first have to be in my mouth to suck them out properly. At that moment I feel so wonderfully such a real sub slut. It's a good thing no one can see me. Because a grown guy sucking piss nylons. That must be a very strange sight.

My wife goes to bed and, in fact, it comes down to me having to figure out how to spend the night. Can't shower or put on anything else, I have to stay in the pantry and sleep under the plastic. I can't get to sleep it was cold. And so just lie there and wait a bit to see if I hear from my wife.

When I get the signal that I can shower. We have a garden shower and rinse everything out. Then I can go to sleep in the guest room. In the morning I make breakfast for us and everything is back to normal. We don't talk about it anymore. 

Like nothing happened...

PS I forgot to tell you that I have to clean the butt plug if it has to be taken out for a visit to the toilet. I have to clean it with my mouth and put it back in the 10 minutes in front of the camera. When it is placed I have to spread my buttocks and show on the camera that it is properly in my sissy hole.

9 Konditioniert

 

Now you must be thinking what and why?  Why? I don’t know! But if we’re both enjoying ourselves then I’m all for it.

The bottom line is that I get rewarded for drinking piss in the form of cumming. I conditioned myself with the help of my wife.

"With conditioning, you show certain behavior after being exposed to a certain stimulus. The bottom line is that you can associate two things with each other."

In my case drinking piss. Basically anything with piss. It's even so bad when I write over it I already get a feeling inside.

So the reward is cumming, but calling me a piss-whore and washing myself with piss is also a reward, I'll do anything for that. In those moments I really do everything or I want to do everything. 

My wife knows that and uses it to her advantage...